thank you ate kat. :)

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone.

To have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved
thoroughly and exclusively.

But to a Christian, God says no.

Not until you're satisfied
and fulfilled and content, unreservedly to me alone.
I do love you my child, and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,
you will not be capable of the perfect human
relationship that I have planned for you.

You will never be united with another
until you are united with Me,
exclusive of any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and
allow Me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me,
expecting the greatest things.
Keep experiencing the satisfaction of knowing that I am.
Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you.

You must wait.

Don't be anxious.

Don't worry.

Don't look around at the things that others have gotten or that I've given them.

Don't look around at the things that you think you want.

Just keep looking off and away up to Me, or you'll miss what I want to show you.

And when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love
far more wonderful than any would ever dream of.

You see, until you are ready
and until the one I have for you is ready,
until you are both satisfied
exclusively with Me and the life I have planned for you,
you won't be able to experience the love
that exemplifies your relationship with Me,
and is thus perfect love.

I am working even this minute,
to have both of you ready at the same time.

And dear child, I want you to have the most wonderful love.

I want you to see in the flesh a
picture of your own relationship with Me,
and to enjoy materially and concretely the
everlasting union of beauty and perfection.


Thank you Lord. For i know that i only have to FIX my eyes on You, the author and perfector of my faith to experience perfect peace in my life.

Thank you Lord. For You are strong enough...You are brave enough...to take a second chance...a third chance...a fourth chance on me.

Thank you Lord. For Your grace is sufficient for me and your power is made perfect in my weaknesses.

Thank you Lord. For Your mercies are always new every morning and Your faithfulness is everlasting.

Thank you Lord. For there is nothing that i can do to separate me from Your Love.

Thank you Lord. For You are my GOD. Teach me to be still and recognize the power of Your presence in my life. And teach me to WAIT...until such a time when Your hand will reach out and lead me to the one You have created just for me.

ang sarap magbakasyon!:)

ang sarap ng feeling ng one-to-sawa ang quiet time mo kasi hindi ka malelate for school.

ang sarap ng feeling ng matatapos mo na ang peborit nobel mo dahil wala kang ibang magawa.

ang sarap din ng feeling ng wala ka munang ibang iniisip kundi kung ano ang ulam mamyang tanghali o mamayang gabi. haha. :)

ang sarap din kausapin si Lord anytime and everytime you want kasi alam mong wala kang susunod na appointment or meeting.

ang sarap ding iwanan muna lahat ng alalahanin at mga dapat isipin sa likod ng utak mo.

pero hindi rin naman pwedeng ganito na lang palagi.
sooner or later...kailangan nang harapin ang mga bagay (not to mention tao) na kailangang harapin.

at pagdating kay Lord. walang bakasyon.

kung gusto Niyang cornerin at kausapin ngayon ang puso mo...gagawin Niya-kahit dapat pinagpapahinga mo muna ang ito.

kung gusto Niyang paiyakin ka kahit in the middle of "The Little Princess" movie (na hindi naman talaga nakakaiyak), gagawin Niya. Just to get His message through you, his child.

kung gusto Niyang sabihin ang "Anak, mali na talaga yang ginagawa mo" at the middle of washing the dishes, itutuloy Niya yun.

Ang i thank Him. Cause like the sheperd calling out his sheep, he lets me recognize His voice. He lets me in HIS sheep pen. He calls me His own. What's more...he never lets me go. Kahit ako na mismo yung napumilit ng lumabas na gate at nagpasaway. Kahit ako na mismo yung lumalayo sa Kaniya dahil parang wala na namang direksyon ang buhay ko. HE still calls me His own.

Kahit pa siguro bakasyon...di naman nagpapahinga ang pagmamahal ng Panginoon.

"We love cause He first loved us".
Thank you Lord.

He has made everything beautiful in His time.

had read this line from the 3rd chapter of Ecclesiastes for a couple of times and yet, it is only up until this moment that i fully appreciated the meaning of this words...

truly that the Lord is so good. even before we are formed into our mother's womb, HE already knew the things that we will accomplish and the things that are going to happen in our lives. as one of famous praise and worship songs has put it:

"beautiful Lord...wonderful savior...all of my days are held in Your hands...crafted into Your perfect plan".

and yet, when there are some instances that sin and darkness overcomes your life, you tend to forget that the Lord is still there to welcome you in His loving arms.

you tend to forget the work that He has done at the calvary.

you tend to forget that everytime you sin, you are nailing Jesus again at the cross.

he has made everything beautiful IN HIS TIME.
i needed this. now that everything seemed dark and gloomy all at the same time.
now that everytime i look in the mirror, i see filth and grime inside.
now that shame and fear is covering my heart.

and everytime i remember this hymn. i can't help but feel tears well up in my eyes.

Amazing Grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost
But now i am found
Was blind, but now, I see

thank you Lord, for Your irresistible grace that never fails.