hay.

isang tulog na lang, lilipad na ang aking mahal na ama patungo sa lugar kung saan naligaw si Nemo. gustuhin ko mang tawirin din ang East Australian Current para sundan siya...di pa rin pwede. in a few months now, susunod na rin sila ma at kevlyn.

isa pang hay.

unti-unti ng pinamimigay ni mama yung mga gamit namin sa bahay. last saturday, nawala na yung mga pots and pans na bihirang gamitin sa house. im not materialistic. if i had my way, dapat, noon pa yun binigay kasi hindi naman talaga nagagamit. nalulungkot lang talaga ako...*sniff*

pa and lokevlyn (kaming magkakapatid yun) bonded yesterday afternoon while my mom went out to go shopping. therapy niya ata yun. namili siya ng mga bagay na pwedeng ibenta sa australia.
at shempre, hindi pwedeng walang iyakan session dun. nagsimula na siyang magbilin sa amin.
"always fill up your sibling's Love Tank...blah...blah"
"i'm so proud of you dahil alam kong hindi mo pababayaan ang sarili mo"
"kevin, pagpasensiyahan mo na si mama"

waaaah.i hate goodbyes.

pero iba talaga si Lord. hindi niya hinayaan na umalis si papa ng hindi niya inaayos ang puso ko. *ehem*
He put back some things in their right places yesterday. Im glad He did. At least ngayon, at peace nang aalis si papa.

At peace na rin ang emotions ko. Dahil hawak na ni Lord ang puso ko.

Lord I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You ALONE
Every breath that i take
Every moment that im awake
Lord have your way in me

"the Soul that has sufficient faith accepts all the events of life as gifts from God, in the serene assurance that God knows best!"

amen.
thank you Lord for you wonderful gifts.

"when you keep the Lord in your heart, there is nothing to be fear about in your life. Things will come as the Lord has planned for you".

Amen.

but sometimes, you just can't help but peer into the fog of tomorrow, attempting to get a glimpse of it so that all your worries would just disappear. drama.

buti na lang, nandiyan si Lord.
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sa saturday na ang alis ni papa for Australia. haaaay. am gonna miss my daddy. *sniff*.

happy birthday my dearest be! :)
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God never tells us to give up things (or people) just for the sake of giving them up but he tells us to give them up, for the sake of the only thing wothr having, namely, life with Himself.
oswald chambers.

yes Lord. i will let go.

Notice how God opens millions of flowers everyday without forcing the buds...don't try to force anything. Let life be a constant letting go and letting GOD.

yes Lord. i will let go.

ano ang feeling ng runner-up?
masaya.
mahirap ipaliwanag pero nakita ko talaga ang grace ni Lord kagabi.nakita ko rin na may mga bagay talaga siyang inaallow para lalong ma-sift ang puso at character ko.
thank you Lord.:)

this is the prayer of my heart tonight.
"Lord, i give up all my plans and purposes, all my own desires and hopes, and accept Thy will for my life. I give up myself, my life, my all utterly to Thee to be Thine forever. Fill me and seal me with Thy Holy Spirit. Use me as Thou wilt, send me where Thou wilt, work out Thy whole will in my life at any cost, now and forever...amen"

two years ago, i have my life set out before me, after graduation, i would apply to ABSCBN as a news reporter and work my way to the top. That was my plan. That was my dream. every paper, every exam was focused on that on that one single goal- to be on TOP.

But now, when i look back at all the Lord has done into my life, and what the Lord is going to do, i no longer see myself in front of the cameras delivering the news. i no longer see myself on top of everyone else.

Instead, i would want to see myself as someone who would do anything and go anywhere for God.
Bring it on, Lord. Bring it on.:)