hwa.
ang tagal ko ring nagbakasyon sa blog ko.
walang excuse.
tamad lang talaga ako maginternet at magsulat.
at siguro...dahil hindi ko na rin alam kung alin sa mga ginawa ni Lord sa buhay ko lately ang maisasama ko.

alam kong marami na rin nakakamiss sa akin. haha. (parang naririnig ko si drew na nagsasabing "ang kapal mo naman Lovelle")

at sobrang miss ko na rin ang mga mga esbi pipol. naalala ko nung isang araw, nakita ko si ate jam sa tambayan, kaso, nagpepray siya at kailangan ko na ring umalis. hwa...

kanina naman, nagkita kami ni feona sa CMC canteen at iniimbitahan niya ako para sa BIg F this afternoon. hwa...nababaligtad na ang mundo, sabi ko, at natawa na lang kami.

hindi pa ako graduate pero feeling ko, alumni na alumni na ang dating ko sa esbi. :(

pero sabi nga ni ate Jam, "matatanda na tayo, 'nak". kailangan nanag matutong bitawan ang mga bagay na dapat bitawan at ipasa ang mga bagay na dapat ibigay sa iba.

siguro nga.

"there is nothing we can do to make God love us more. there is nothing we can do to make God love us less."-What's so amazing about GRACE?

for the past few months...unti-unting tinuturo sa akin ni Lord and Amazing Grace niya. And i guess that is what kept my feet on the ground these days. it is the simple realization that there is not much difference between me and a non-christian-im just the forgiven sinner. Praise God!

For the past months, i have forgotten how it feels to be at peace with the Lord and myself. i don't blame anyone for it, because i know that it has always been my fault.

i have not been able to fix my eyes in Jesus, the author and perfector of my faith.

"You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You"
-Isaiah 26:3

kaya siguro palagi na lang in turmoil ang emotions ko dahil palagi akong nakafocus sa sarili ko. sa mga problema, sa mga trials, sa mga struggles at hindi kay Lord.
hay. dapat talaga, less and less of myself at more and more of Him.

pero faithful talaga si papa Lord.

i sing to You Lord a hymn of Love for Your faithfulness to me...im carried in everlasting arms, You'll neve let me go...THROUGH IT ALL

there is really nothing we can do to separate us from the Love of God. Not even our own sins can eliminate the irresistable grace that He has bestowed upon us. And everything that has happened and is going to happen in my life is all intended to display His magnificent glory.


"For we know that in ALL things, God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called accoding to His purpose"
Hebrews 8:9

Minsan lang talaga, ang hirap hirap kapag alam mong palagi mo nang binibigo si Lord. ang hirap kapag parang wala ka ng mukhang pwedeng iharap sa Kaniya dahil sa karumihan mo. Pero when you think about it, even from the start, marumi ka naman talaga. Even from the start, man cannot enter God's rest...if not for Christ's sacrifice, if not for His Cross.

At hanggat may natitirang yabang at pride sa sarili mo...hindi ka titigilan ni Lord. Dudurugin at dudurugin ka Niya hanggang sa dumating ang panahon na isusuko mo na ang lahat-lahat sa Kaniya dahil alam mong hindi mo na talaga kaya.

thank you Lord for humbling me again and again and again.

i am a Christian
-anonymous

When i say..."I am a Christian"
Im not shouting "Im clean living"
Im whispering "I was lost"
Now i'm found and forgiven.

When i say..."I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I confess that I stumble,
And need CHRIST to be my guide.

When i say..."I am a Christian"
Im not trying to be strong
Im professing that I am weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When i say..."I am a Christian"
Im not bragging of success.
Im admitting that i have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When i say..."I am a Christian"
Im not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far to visible
But God believes im worth it.

When i say..."I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain,
I have my share of heartaches
So i call upon His name.

When i say..."I am a Christian"
Im not holier than thou,
Im just a simple sinner
Who received God's grace somehow.

thank you ate kat. :)

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone.

To have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved
thoroughly and exclusively.

But to a Christian, God says no.

Not until you're satisfied
and fulfilled and content, unreservedly to me alone.
I do love you my child, and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,
you will not be capable of the perfect human
relationship that I have planned for you.

You will never be united with another
until you are united with Me,
exclusive of any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and
allow Me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me,
expecting the greatest things.
Keep experiencing the satisfaction of knowing that I am.
Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you.

You must wait.

Don't be anxious.

Don't worry.

Don't look around at the things that others have gotten or that I've given them.

Don't look around at the things that you think you want.

Just keep looking off and away up to Me, or you'll miss what I want to show you.

And when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love
far more wonderful than any would ever dream of.

You see, until you are ready
and until the one I have for you is ready,
until you are both satisfied
exclusively with Me and the life I have planned for you,
you won't be able to experience the love
that exemplifies your relationship with Me,
and is thus perfect love.

I am working even this minute,
to have both of you ready at the same time.

And dear child, I want you to have the most wonderful love.

I want you to see in the flesh a
picture of your own relationship with Me,
and to enjoy materially and concretely the
everlasting union of beauty and perfection.


Thank you Lord. For i know that i only have to FIX my eyes on You, the author and perfector of my faith to experience perfect peace in my life.

Thank you Lord. For You are strong enough...You are brave enough...to take a second chance...a third chance...a fourth chance on me.

Thank you Lord. For Your grace is sufficient for me and your power is made perfect in my weaknesses.

Thank you Lord. For Your mercies are always new every morning and Your faithfulness is everlasting.

Thank you Lord. For there is nothing that i can do to separate me from Your Love.

Thank you Lord. For You are my GOD. Teach me to be still and recognize the power of Your presence in my life. And teach me to WAIT...until such a time when Your hand will reach out and lead me to the one You have created just for me.

ang sarap magbakasyon!:)

ang sarap ng feeling ng one-to-sawa ang quiet time mo kasi hindi ka malelate for school.

ang sarap ng feeling ng matatapos mo na ang peborit nobel mo dahil wala kang ibang magawa.

ang sarap din ng feeling ng wala ka munang ibang iniisip kundi kung ano ang ulam mamyang tanghali o mamayang gabi. haha. :)

ang sarap din kausapin si Lord anytime and everytime you want kasi alam mong wala kang susunod na appointment or meeting.

ang sarap ding iwanan muna lahat ng alalahanin at mga dapat isipin sa likod ng utak mo.

pero hindi rin naman pwedeng ganito na lang palagi.
sooner or later...kailangan nang harapin ang mga bagay (not to mention tao) na kailangang harapin.

at pagdating kay Lord. walang bakasyon.

kung gusto Niyang cornerin at kausapin ngayon ang puso mo...gagawin Niya-kahit dapat pinagpapahinga mo muna ang ito.

kung gusto Niyang paiyakin ka kahit in the middle of "The Little Princess" movie (na hindi naman talaga nakakaiyak), gagawin Niya. Just to get His message through you, his child.

kung gusto Niyang sabihin ang "Anak, mali na talaga yang ginagawa mo" at the middle of washing the dishes, itutuloy Niya yun.

Ang i thank Him. Cause like the sheperd calling out his sheep, he lets me recognize His voice. He lets me in HIS sheep pen. He calls me His own. What's more...he never lets me go. Kahit ako na mismo yung napumilit ng lumabas na gate at nagpasaway. Kahit ako na mismo yung lumalayo sa Kaniya dahil parang wala na namang direksyon ang buhay ko. HE still calls me His own.

Kahit pa siguro bakasyon...di naman nagpapahinga ang pagmamahal ng Panginoon.

"We love cause He first loved us".
Thank you Lord.

He has made everything beautiful in His time.

had read this line from the 3rd chapter of Ecclesiastes for a couple of times and yet, it is only up until this moment that i fully appreciated the meaning of this words...

truly that the Lord is so good. even before we are formed into our mother's womb, HE already knew the things that we will accomplish and the things that are going to happen in our lives. as one of famous praise and worship songs has put it:

"beautiful Lord...wonderful savior...all of my days are held in Your hands...crafted into Your perfect plan".

and yet, when there are some instances that sin and darkness overcomes your life, you tend to forget that the Lord is still there to welcome you in His loving arms.

you tend to forget the work that He has done at the calvary.

you tend to forget that everytime you sin, you are nailing Jesus again at the cross.

he has made everything beautiful IN HIS TIME.
i needed this. now that everything seemed dark and gloomy all at the same time.
now that everytime i look in the mirror, i see filth and grime inside.
now that shame and fear is covering my heart.

and everytime i remember this hymn. i can't help but feel tears well up in my eyes.

Amazing Grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost
But now i am found
Was blind, but now, I see

thank you Lord, for Your irresistible grace that never fails.

Iba talaga si Lord.

He knows.
Even before you utter every word that you are about to say in prayer, He knows...

And if it is according to His will. he will act upon it.

"May the Words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to your sight, O Lord my Rock and my Redeemer" Psalm 19:14

this has been my life verse and the prayer of my heart not just for myself but for the people i love. that they too, would desire to please the Lord in everything that they want to do.

not that i have achieved it in my personal walk with the Lord. on the contrary, i always fail... but He has always been there to carry and lead me on. and i thank the Lord because there is really nothing to boast about in His presence. and every time we think that we will be fine without Him, the Lord allows us to give in to our weaknesses. But the most amazing thing about it is His response whenever we fail.

"My power is made perfect in weakness" 2 Corinthians 12:9-10.
hay.
Thank you Lord. For even if i am not worthy to approach Your throne of grace, you have given me Your Son Jesus Christ to be my high priest and has allowed Him to the substitute for my filthiness.Truly Father, that I am nothing without You.

i promise

Lord you know my heart
and all my desires
and the secret things that i'll never tell
Lord you know them well
though i may be young
i see and understand
that at times like sheep
we go astray
and things get out of hand

so i promise to
be true to you
to live my life IN PURITY
as unto You
waiting for the day
when i hear You say
here is THE ONE
i have created just for you

until then o Lord
i will be content
knowing that TRUE LOVE
will come someday
it would only come from YOU
for i have seen the suffering
that loneliness can cause
when we chose to give
our love away
without a RIGHTEOUS cause

i have heard and sang this song many times. but still,it always makes me cry.
sorry Lord.